Wednesday, September 13, 2006

untitled chaos

Yes! It has happened! Finally the words have stopped flowing! The ideas fail me! The thoughts are lost! The brain no longer helps the observations to develop into some sensible written work! So my act of writing has suddenly come to a stand still, making it seem as if all that was, was just a temporary phase and a mere limitation of my mind and thoughts besides a failed attempt to speak out loud. Coming to think of it, it is my own fault too, letting people affect me and my free flow of thoughts, letting them touch me and letting them easily bog me down. So here I go again but I write on nothing specific today though the point is I will still write!


Okay! I am mainly writing this article for 4 reasons:

1) The clock shows 1.59 am and no sane soul is awake to listen to me.

2) The heat is making me sweat to the extent that its bloody impossible for me to sleep or even sit for that matter but am still determined to bore the poor souls reading this since I still practice the age ol' "if thou shalt feel bored then bore thy neighbors" philosophy!

3) I just have enough energy to write garbage but no determination to study or do something productive.

4) Am royally pissed off on innumerable living creatures and am praying that they either cease to exist or they just let me be!


It just seems like yesterday when I was all charged up to fight the world and make it big in life. But ah crap! The laziness fights its way back to defeat its age old enemy in determination and takes total control of me! So the helpless me just waits for some guide to help get through this self-messed life! Self-messed is the correct term because life in itself is always beautiful and generous but the insatiable tendency fucks it royally!


I have read it somewhere: the person who knows what the cure for the problem is, but never works on the same is far greater a fool than the person who has failed to recognize the problem in itself. Now these words of wisdom do strike me but I still choose to stay the greater fool. Blame it on laziness.


I waste my life bitching about how imperfect you are when I run away from my own imperfections. I mock at you for your foolish actions while I fail to correct my own. I laugh away at your serious issues while cry a million oceans on my self-created miseries. I hate the world for its hypocrite ways when the biggest hypocrite is wide awake in me!


Thoughts fail me today, wisdom is a long lost friend, laziness is making this life worthless and misery is self inflicted here! So here I go rate myself the craziest thing ever born! Here I go mock at myself! Here I go apologize to thee for all that I've ever said!

8 comments:

sneha said...

er.. u seem to be in an.. er.. ugly mood... good u poured it all out and 'pakaoed' us! heheh..

btw, i got linda's star signs and relationship signs!!! i donno why iam writing this here.. but watever.. iam just thoroughly excited!!

sun4none said...

yeah.. was acting drunk without actually being drunk! :S

the next chick i go out with.. uska pura kundli leke tere paas aata hai.. u tell me if she'l dump me or i'll dump her or it wud be a mutual break off :P
ok me heads for some tea :P

sneha said...

y so negative?? it could work out u know! lol..

Anonymous said...

thats the whole problem...go have a nice drink...the world will look to be a much better place...atleast the girls around me definitely look prettier...:-P...and 1:59 wont seem to be so late...ahem i actually called up smithy and woke up everyone at his place...

sun4none said...

abey chutiye.. the only purpose of ur life is gettin wasted in daru.. so u do tht while i waste it away bitching bout life! :P

Anonymous said...

aahhh....but believe me....why be a bitch when u can be a drunkard...:-P....and quit pakaving bout daru....u know that its the one thing that gets u to the purpose of life...which btw i have no clue of...and beyond all....we all know who is the fucking boozard here....give him anything .... rum, vodka, scotch, cognac...the only response u get from him is "Kya sahi hai re"...

Anonymous said...

and may i know what the purpose of my life is ???? ... have been trying to figure it out for 22 years now...

sun4none said...

hey fucker.. am not a drunkard.. just twice in my life have i got drunk and that doesnt make me a drunkard.. jst cz i like the taste of scotch doesnt make me a drunkard :P.. and hell no it doesn't give u no purpose of life.. all u do is get lost in some dream world cz u r just too weak to accept the reality! u wanna feel tht numb so u cant feel the reality.. duh! thats sick!

the only purpose u presently are living for is to get wasted.. u r just too arrogant to admit it.. even to urself.. so no use shouting and barking.. anyway u dont care and dont expect me to do the same!