Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Food For Thought? Just some fuckin' chaos!


Warning: This is not meant to be deep. If you are looking for some deep shit kindly get outta here. If you expect anything deeper than a kid’s swimming pool on this blog, you are sadly mistaken my friend.

And I blame Kacky for this post, as a weird statement in his mail made me stop my work-out and forced me to think!

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“Things we own, end up owning us” – Chuck Palahniuk (Fight Club)

The other day Tanmay was told a few things:
1. People from the top notch companies are looking for stress-relief. If they are working in top companies then they shouldn’t be stressed. Is it the stress to maintain the position at the top? Maybe.
2. A man traveling by bus dreams that one day he will be rich enough to travel by a BMW. One day he achieves that dream and buys one BMW. The next day a cyclist crashes against his car and there are scratches all over the rich BMW. The man is upset. Reason - the scratch on the car is not only on the car but it’s also on his self.
3. A man can be happy traveling in a bus and he can, at the same time, be upset and tensed while traveling by a plane.

We maintain our car, like we maintain our house, like we maintain our body, our health. All our life we are busy maintaining stuff that eventually will die, disappear, won’t be a part of this superficial world. So why take the trouble? Probably, so that while we still own it (or it still owns us as we fail to distinguish ourselves from the same), it stays in good shape. So basically, although it is quite apart from “us”, it is still a part of “us”.

Now some school of thoughts say that everything is finally one. We are all one. Some say it’s all infinite. Some say the end quotient is null (positive and negative theory). Now this is confusing. I somehow don’t believe in the positive negative theory as I don’t believe that any action can be judged as positive or negative. So I won’t waste my thoughts on that. But if I was to believe in the universe being one, then there is a problem in my head.

The car and I are two distinct objects, just like the house and me, just like my body and me. So if my body isn’t me, then what is me? Don’t give me the crap “soul”. I know it’s probably the “soul” but how? What if I say, maintain the soul by keeping it pure. Now I don’t believe in purity again as when I say “keep it pure” then it will just mean I’m going back to the positive and negative theory that I don’t believe in.

There is a belief that I can’t justify, we hold all the answers within us, we hold all the information and it is all very obvious to us, in fact it is so obvious that we ignore it all the time.

Give me a name and I’m defined in this world. Like my parents gave me a name and I’m known by that name to them. At blogger, I decided to choose my identity as another brick in the wall and bloggers know me by this name. So finally it is just some random name which means nothing. So strip me off my name, and everything that is so superficially “mine” and what gets left of me is me. But how do I do it? So who exactly am I? What exactly is me? Unfortunately, I’m not intelligent enough to figure this out or maybe the answers are all staring in my face and am not able to read them!

15 comments:

parikrama said...

Hi AB,
Enjoyed reading your travelogue especially the Age & the Tkt Nbr mixup ! As for this post, eventhough you claim it's as deep as a Kiddie's pool, still I am a fairly phattu swimmer so won't wade in..

another brick in the wall said...

hehe.. thank u parikrama.. am glad u do read my blog once in a while.. the readership's fallen miserably i tell u.. i myself have to keep commenting so that the comments increase on the blog and so that i remain happy u see.. how much more pathetic can it get 4 me man! hehe.. this was a waste of a post anyway.. i was just bored that morning :s

ninkita said...

kya yaar!!!!! itna gol-gol sochoge to kahin nahi panhuchoge!!! but nice to follow teh thoguht process anyway :P

Snehal said...

@ i myself have to keep commenting so that the comments increase on the blog and so that i remain happy u see..

:D cant stop laughing.. but ya, it's true.. happens with me too.. hehe..

and it becomes more pathetic if the people concerned don't respond further..

another brick in the wall said...

@ ninkita: someday i'll stop thinking :P.. thank u :)

@ snehal: abey koi toh post pe comment maaro.. comment pe kya comment maarte ho! :s

Snehal said...

u only said this post was waste.. right? :D

another brick in the wall said...

i never said that :S.. well that way everythings a waste i tell u :P.. crap.. plz dont get me started on that again.. my head goes crazy and i end up doing NOTHING for a long time then and suffer financial losses :P

Snehal said...

fine, this wish will also be granted.
hehe, feels like a ferry

another brick in the wall said...

uhh.. u meant fairy rt? :P

Snehal said...

oops yes.. fairy..
more laughs trigger coz of tht ferry
.. may be i thot of the ferry boat:P

chal bye for now..

another brick in the wall said...

:S.. u know tht was a bad joke rt :P

Snehal said...

yes :D

another brick in the wall said...

hehe :P

KAMONASISH AAYUSH MAZUMDAR said...

u r mistaken if u think that this isn't deep dude :) infact i wud go onto say that questioning "who m i" is the deepest question in the entire universe.

questioning who we are...wat we are doing here...wat do u mean by "me" are questions that hav been quizzed abt since eons n vl continue to do so....y ??? coz if v all understand the motive behind life then v might not want to do all the things tht v r doing thruour out lives...mayb its designed to stay hidden...mayb thr is no motive n the search for the motive is the motive in itself :)....v vl nvr knw.
until then i guess v all hav to do wat v love to do so that v dont hav to think abt other things since the other things (money,car,house,etc) is jus a byproduct of wat v do in life.

another brick in the wall said...

@K.A.M: man! and i thot my blog-identity was a long name! :P

anyway.. this was a shit post i believe and well, i tend to totally disagree from wat u r saying.. crap.. u want me to justify myself? alrt since this is ur first time on my blog.. i'll do that :S.. here goes:

1. what restricts us from reaching to the answer to the question is that we are trying to deal with it intellectually and our intellect is restricted to the amount of shit we know. what we don't know, we can never reach out to and till we come to that, we can never think if u get what am saying here.

2. we are wasting our life doing things that we apparently like or actually make us happy for the time being and happiness being an emotion, it cannot last for long, it shud die, it will die, it's inevitable.. we do not search for peace of mind.. the day we find that peace, the day we stay satiated, the day we stop wanting things, the day we realize what we are wanting or what we are running towards or what we are aiming for is a mere illusion created by our own damn head, and it's pointless chasing any fuckin dream that we ever dreamt, that day we will be free.

3. motive is bullshit. we are distracted by our wants and as i said these wants are just illusions created by our dumbfuck of a head. we are deceived children my friend.. we need to wake up to the fact :P

4. ignore all this shit.. am a crazy fuck.. hehe.. live on :)