Sunday, October 29, 2006

Blank Confusion

I hate this mood! I hate being non-excited! I hate it when I am inactive, when my mind just goes off to sleep, I hate doing nothing, I hate being unproductive even for one second of my life, and here I am, 30 whole minutes and I have done NOTHING! This is killing me really! I tried strumming my guitar but zipped it shut within 2 minutes, then tried to call PJ and GZ but no one answered my call, then messaged my sistaah, but she never replied to it, so I reached for my cell to call her but didn't have the heart to disturb her, so I gave up on the idea and reached for my diary, tried to write some shit but then I thought of blogging it instead! Now by the time blogger.com opened itself, I totally forgot what I wanted to blog on! So now I sit all blank and totally out of ideas before the machine!

As the emptiness fills the mind, I begin to visualize the tomorrow, plan my future that my eyes want to see.

The long road trip on my bike: I would be gone for a year probably, but this, according to my calculations, isn't quite feasible in the next 2 years.

Perform in a concert: But the amount of time I am taking to learn the guitar, it doesn't seem possible for next 5 years.

My career: If everything goes as planned, then I would be packing my baggage and would be on wheels by Jan 2k7!

Treks: They will be happening whenever I get 3 straight days off!

Photography: This new found obsession will commence as soon as I get my digi-cam! So I hope this would be soon!

Sketching: Few years from now, I would be attending some art school

Music: Not sure, but if I get the time to, I surely would join some music school.

Dramatics: I guess I will, but not on my priority really!

The undisclosed: Before July 8th of 2007 surely!

The girl: Umm... No clue! Don't want to label it a priority and screw my brains! So better off alone!

So after exposing my thoughts and yet-to-be-lived-dreams to the world, I feel all geared up to start with "the undisclosed"! Ah! Relief! End of Blank Confusion :P

22 comments:

heh? ok said...

ok sorry to be such a nitpicking nag, but what is this 'reply back' confusion? reply implies back, the back is redundant. as for the rest, i made a mental timeline of your plans, and all i can say is whoa!

sneha said...

the unidsclosed?? what's the undisclosed?? Iwannaknow IwannaknowIwannaknowIwannaknowIwannaknowIwannaknow

i wanna know!!!! hmm.. WHAT is it that you want to do? hmm?? *looks suspiciously*

n ey? wat huh? 'better off alone' that doesn't sound like u! :P

sun4none said...

@ sangy: thank u for correctiing me.. damn! i make tht mistake so many times!

@ sneha: sorry.. not disclosing till it happens! and "better off alone".. ohh.. so i stay focused :P

sneha said...

arre! waiting with bated breath for 8th july 07!! :P

sun4none said...

my guess it u wont hav 2 wait tht long.. hope my calculations n confidenc doesnt fail me :)

sneha said...

i hope i hope too!! i hope i hope. sheesh. ur making it sound so friggin mysterious!

sun4none said...

hehe.. and i'm enjoyin it :P

sneha said...

sadist! :P

heh? ok said...

i don't think you particularly need to go to drama school. you give out these strong 'nautankibaaz' vibes.

sun4none said...

no no sangee.. wont go to any drama school yaar.. am really good at it.. both - acting and over acting.. hav acted in a few play when in school n college.. so thoda experience hai mujhe :P

heh? ok said...

mujhe toh har post mein drama nazar aata hai...i guess this is where i'd say you're culling your experience from. theek. you can try your hand at ramlila :P

sun4none said...

obviously... therez gotta be drama in em.. bloody.. thy are expression of emotions.. how bland n uninteresting wud thy be if not dramatized.. emotions give life to them.. (or so i like 2 believe).. so i admit drama persists n it always will!

heh? ok said...

arre baap re...dude don't take umbrage. i bloody realize that @##@## emotions cannot be expressed in a bland way...actually they can, but they shouldn't. maine toh sirf itna bola ki your writing is giving you experience in the arena of theatrics as well, so if you decide to pick it up, you'll be prepared.

sun4none said...

no re.. not angry

raghu said...

kamine...wat happend.. 2 MONKING~!!?!?!
v r supposed 2 become monks..hav u 4gotten our ellaborate plans.. hav u 4gotten.. the pahadi babes!!!?

sun4none said...

no raghu.. doncha worry.. am not betraying u man.. but if u calculate properly.. i wud be done wid all i want 2 by the time i'm 30.. so i wud;ve lived my life by 30... thn i'll be ready 2 retire :P .. so yeah.. monking n pahadi babes.. still on (y) :D

raghu said...

gud...dats nice 2 hear.. me bad wid math.

parikrama said...

UPDATED !!

pravin said...

and then you entered the seventh grade ...

what happened next :D

sid said...

perform in a concert? lol thts on my list too :D.. wat say lets form a band u on lead me on rhythm we ll find the rest.. :D

undisclosed -> getting laid? ;)

sun4none said...

@ sid: concert n bandYES!! n no jokes.. lets get down 2 biz :P

gettin laid... y wait so long?? :P

raghu said...

arrey babua.. disclose.. disconnect.